I thought we were bestfriends?:(
I posted something on my multiply blog about someone always taking everything from me. At first, I was defending her pa.. until last night.
So I went to church, intending to join the choir because I really miss singing in a choir (We moved last January from Antipolo, so I had to leave my choir :( ) but I didn't see Javie there so I got really shy na to approach the members. So I decided to hear mass nalang. It was my first time to attend mass alone, and I loved it. I was able to really listen to the homily and I really felt at peace. I was naiiyak na dun kasi nga, may problem ako. Like the night before palang, I was texting some bestfriends to call me because I was fucking crying already, and none of them did :( So I felt really sad and I felt good when I stepped into the Church. So anyway..
After mass, I was praying pa for a while then I saw Javie, so I waited for him nalang because I was really sad na and I wanted a hug. haha. Okay, tapos he said tara na. So I was like, Saan? Tapos he told me na tuloy pala sa Sean Kingston. Thanks ah. Thanks talaga, I didn't know :| Okay, so ayun, lalo akong nalungkot and I couldn't face him na kasi I was crying. When I cry pa naman it's super unglamorous and weird. haha. Tas I was walking home alone and I was crying pa din, the guard even asked me what was wrong. I guess he thought I was harassed or something.
So I got home and I called Lissy and we talked and she made me feel better na. Thanks, Lis :) Susa was trying to call me din daw but it was busy na. So yeah, I was crying na and all, but I never got a hug :( Anyway.. haha. So I learned stuff about this so called friend of mine who's been backstabbing me all along pala. Lalo akong nadepress, I didn't think she could do that to me. Mkay. I don't wanna talk nalang kasi I'm really really hurt pa with what she did and ayoko ng lumaki pa yung issue :|
So yeah..this blog entry is super magulo and sabog.. that's how I feel today :| Oh, and Javie, if you're reading this, you owe me a hug :(